Walking awhile at night
Each house got personal.
Then impersonal again, in the old style of repetition.
All the houses with their minor domestic differences.
It seemed dishonest somehow to find comfort in them, those gestures: the manicured lawns with expensive sprinkler systems, the garbage bins
pulled to the curb for Tuesday pick up, the recycling.
Still, I admit, I did find comfort in them, & was troubled
by that. I’d go to coffee shops & talk like a philosopher
regarding death & sex. At home I’d hunch over poems
as though they were important, but then I’d sleep to the hum
of the television. Wasn’t it all…?
I wanted to live without distraction. I became
obsessed with the little deaths of daily routine. I was made
to speak grandly of the mundane things.
J.S. Belote earned his BA in English from Principia College and is an MFA candidate at Virginia Commonwealth University.